Changes

It is now the beginning of a new year, and I like to reflect upon the things that I have done the previous year. Last year I wanted to improve the status of my mental and spiritual health, and I have done so. At first, I thought that I haven’t really achieved anything, but this is because I was looking at my situation from a negative view point. I was looking at what I haven’t accomplished rather than what I have accomplished. Although I would have liked to have done a lot more things, it wasn’t the time to do them. Also, there were things that happened that I wish have never happened, but I see that in the grand scheme of things, it all turned out the way I wanted them to.

After my nervous breakdown in 2006, I wanted to change the outlook of my life. I knew that I didn’t want to suffer from the devastating effects of my environment and my illness. I felt that I had no choice but to push through and continue living. That time-period was difficult, but my life has definitely changed for the better since then. I had to move back in with my parents, which I thought would hinder my recovery, but things have changed there. Also, I was able to take care of my medical expenses and see a more qualified doctor. Later, a friend of mine introduced me to the movie, “The Secret.” The movie awakened a very deep part of mind and reminded me that I can create whatever I want for my life. It took some time for me to realize and understand how the Law of Attraction works in my life, but the whole process was quite refreshing and enlightening. I knew what I wanted out of life, and my heart is always set on getting it.

There was something that I had my heart set on accomplishing last year, and it never happened. I expected it to happen plenty of times, and when I saw that it hasn’t or that it wouldn’t, then I felt a bit discouraged. I did maintain a bit of faith, though. With that bit of hope I was able to accept that it wasn’t quite time for me to have what I wanted, otherwise I would have had it already. Now, I could have taken a negative approach, but based on what I believe I know that I would have attracted some negative bullshit. That is not my intention. In the past there were times when I wondered why something didn’t turn out the way I had intended, and later I found out that something better has happened or that what I wanted wasn’t what I thought it’d be. I don’t believe that my life is set up for endless disappointments but rather for eternal happiness, since that is what I want. Also, I believe that everything happens at the right time, even despite what I *think* I want.

My life was very difficult in the beginning because of what I was taught and how I dealt with it, but this reality no longer exists for me. Now I know that I can do whatever I want and have whatever I want. The thing is that I have to focus on what I want and not to put conditions on it. Conditions tend to hinder everything, and I need no kind of hindrances. Everything happens for a reason, but I’m creating good reasons this time.

"The Secret"

Well, "The Secret" is the Law of Attraction. Abraham-Hicks define the Law of Attraction as "that which is like itself is drawn." It's a very interesting concept, really. I like to think of LoA as the manager of my reality. My thoughts create my reality, and LoA helps me to perceive my life the way I desire to live it. My purpose in life is to maintain a state of well-being and happiness. How is one able to perceive her life this way if her thoughts aren't in alignment, or a match, to this purpose?

For a long time I have been creating by default and sifting through life rather aimlessly. Of course I had goals in mind, but I didn't understand that I couldn't get from one area of my life to another if I didn't change my thoughts. It wasn't until I started reading about LoA and figured out how it could work with me to improve my quality of life. So, now I do a lot of deliberate creating. It's a wonderful process, and it helps me to feel more secure and confident about myself and my reality. In doing this process, I've developed and strengthened my spirituality, which plays a huge role in creating my reality. I feel very empowered and enlightened by the idea that my physical self is an extension of Source Energy, which is very abundant and fulfilling. So, my ultimate purpose - to live a very abundant and fulfilling life.

All of this has changed my life for the best. Considering everything that has occurred in my life, I can only go up from here. I believe that "thoughts become things," and I practice this as much as I can.

The Source of Well-Being

Okay. This week I’m realizing my Inner Being’s potential. Deep down inside I have always known, but really in an unconscious sense; I have never deliberately utilized its power.

Well, my individual Universe is an extension of Source Energy, which is very abundant (that is why it is the source!) and fulfills my Universe’s every request. Within this Universe is my physical self, and within my physical self, is my Inner Being, my Spiritual Entity. My Inner Being is an extension of my Universe, so therefore, I am an extension of Source Energy. This is my reality.

For me well-being is fulfillment and abundance. I never felt fulfilled or abundant because of what I was taught growing up, so I was never well-off or happy. I was taught a lot of things, very negative things. Things that I have chosen to accept out of fear and not knowing any other way. I believed in these negative things and therefore sent out like vibrations. I’ve never realized it before, but my life has turned out exactly how I thought it would. With that being said, my beliefs were fulfilled, and not to mention plentiful.

Now things have changed…my thoughts have changed and are constantly changing for the best. What are my thoughts currently like? They’re a lot more positive. I’m developing my spirituality and learning more and more about myself. Since my reality is a reflection of my thoughts and since I want a great life, then my predominant thoughts (which are the result of my beliefs) should be great and fulfilling. Now, changing certain beliefs may not be the easiest thing to do, but I find the process to be quite an enriching experience.

Now, I am able to create! Deliberately! First thing’s first, I shall think abundance and fulfillment. Without those two, then what the hell am I creating? Yeah, I’d be re-creating my past.

Spirituality: Ideas From My Inner Being

I’m in the process of enhancing my spirituality. Lately and randomly, I have been connecting with my Inner Being on a deeper level. When it happens, I’m not usually aware of it, but I’m not channeling or in some sort of trance.

During this process there is a specific idea that enters my mind, and this idea allows me to view a certain part of my life from another vantage point and then I feel a sense of purity. This purity gives me a blissful awareness of life. Only when I begin to contemplate applying this thought to my physical life do I “snap out of it.”

It’s like my mind leaves the realm of conscious thinking - the type of linear, conscious thinking that physical beings partake in, specifically human beings. It goes to a realm of consciousness where time and space don’t matter, neither does illness, pain, or suffering. It’s quite refreshing and assuring. As I “snap out of it,” I continue thinking of this specific idea and become slightly puzzled. I guess I just need to translate this idea, so that I could utilize it to serve me in this physical life reality.

I don’t know if this process is triggered by certain thoughts or anything, but I know that I don’t intentionally slip into this other realm of thinking. I don’t mind it at all, and now that I realize that it happens, I welcome it (not that I ever felt inconvenienced by it or anything - it occurs naturally). I continue to meditate and read pieces on spirituality, consciousness, and personal growth/well-being. Hopefully, I’ll get deeper and deeper into this process, not so much to cause me to dissociate or panic, but to see my life clearly and without impurity. In addition to the deepening of this process, I would like to be able to deliberately slip into it - in other words, I want to deliberately undergo this process and realize that it’s happening rather than having it spontaneously happen and not realizing it until after the fact.

Funny how I’m currently listening to Nujabes’ Think Different.

"Follow Your Bliss"

I feel that I should focus on being happy and go from there, and I want to focus on all areas of my life. Currently, I’ve been focusing most of my attention on only two areas, occupational and spiritual. My focus on the occupational carried too much weight, and by that I mean that I gave it too much power and control, but now I know that it wasn’t really necessary for me to put that much effort into it. I’m in the process of balancing everything out and growing increasingly happy.

Okay first, I will divide my life into parts (areas). I’m sure that I have ideas for all these areas…like, I’m sure that I know which direction I wanna go with them since I know what will make me happy. Uh, well…I guess I’ll expand my horizons and create a fulfilling life!